10 months ago
Friday, September 11, 2009
mizz mocha
people say god has a way of showing you who god is, but i been searchin all my life n im still lookin 4 it , trial after tribulation and im still goin thru it damn i want shyt 2 be better but y i feel like im goin thru hell to do it, laugh now cry la...ter thas sum tru shyt looks like life catches up wit u faster than u ever knew wen every chance u ever had u blew im just lookin 4 tha right tunnel so i can follow thru..
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
FUCK relationships.... yeah i said it
man being in love is hard but you know whats harder???? having a relationship. see people tend to take advantage of you when they know you love them. They do shit just because you love them so much you will let them get away with it. The only thing worse than a relationship is when its over!!!!!! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
when its over you feel like you've wasted years you will never get back days u will never again have moments you will never forget and memories you will never be able to erase. See once you love a person I mean truly love a person they will always have a place in you heart even if they did you really wrong you may stop loving them but you will never forget about them. You will move on and get on with your life but in the back of your mind they will still occupy sum small place.
I thought I knew what love was but now that I'm older i look back and i realize so many times have i used that word in vain. many times have i said "i love you" and i really didn't. Now i know that I've only really loved 3 men in my life. my first love Although we were young I still often think of him i miss him and in sum ways i luv him but am not in love with him. my second love was a man i thought could do no wrong he treated me like i was the most important thing in his life. he made me feel like i was unbreakable. AND last but not least the third... and most recent god this man
i believe I loved him the most. Like settle down spend the rest of my life with u type of love
He made me feel like i was floating whenever i was with him. and when we were apart my heart grew fonder i missed him he was my waking thought and my reoccurring dream. he was my perfect man.... or so i thought he was beautiful long dreaded hair perfect chocolate skin tall a beautiful smile and a loving touch. He was intelligent thoughtful, caring, considerate a model man and an outstanding father but maybe that was the problem i put him up on a pedestal as if he was above every other man i labeled him my last and only but as time went on things changed...
our perfect relationship became flawed, he became flawed and the more problems arouse the more i held on the harder oi tried to be a perfect girlfriend to be there for him to be his everything. but the more i tried the more he seemed to slip from my grasp.
And people say in the end you see the beginning. I did and that made the end hurt so much more. I never thought I'd hurt like this over a man
the sky is less blue, the sun's not so bright, i cant sleep because he invades my dreams and when I'm awake my awakening thoughts often drift to him. I feel as if sum one stabbed me and everyday they just twist the jagged edged knife a little more.
I tried escaping my reality with alchol
but it doesn't work because when I'm sober and sooner or later your always sober.lol. the pain came back
I tried to smoke it away but once i was sober the pain came back
everyone keeps telling me to get over him date sum one else to get my mind off of it. but how do you date sum one Else's when u met Mr. right and he was wrong?
how do you hold hope for any other relationship when the man of your dreams became you worst nightmare?
now I reflect on love relationships and people of my past and i ask myself am I meant
to be loved? will I ever really love sum one like I love him?
everyone keeps saying " your to young to give up on love" but love has hit me 2 times to many and fucked me over every time
relationships have fucked me over every single time
when is enough just... enough???????
when its over you feel like you've wasted years you will never get back days u will never again have moments you will never forget and memories you will never be able to erase. See once you love a person I mean truly love a person they will always have a place in you heart even if they did you really wrong you may stop loving them but you will never forget about them. You will move on and get on with your life but in the back of your mind they will still occupy sum small place.
I thought I knew what love was but now that I'm older i look back and i realize so many times have i used that word in vain. many times have i said "i love you" and i really didn't. Now i know that I've only really loved 3 men in my life. my first love Although we were young I still often think of him i miss him and in sum ways i luv him but am not in love with him. my second love was a man i thought could do no wrong he treated me like i was the most important thing in his life. he made me feel like i was unbreakable. AND last but not least the third... and most recent god this man
i believe I loved him the most. Like settle down spend the rest of my life with u type of love
He made me feel like i was floating whenever i was with him. and when we were apart my heart grew fonder i missed him he was my waking thought and my reoccurring dream. he was my perfect man.... or so i thought he was beautiful long dreaded hair perfect chocolate skin tall a beautiful smile and a loving touch. He was intelligent thoughtful, caring, considerate a model man and an outstanding father but maybe that was the problem i put him up on a pedestal as if he was above every other man i labeled him my last and only but as time went on things changed...
our perfect relationship became flawed, he became flawed and the more problems arouse the more i held on the harder oi tried to be a perfect girlfriend to be there for him to be his everything. but the more i tried the more he seemed to slip from my grasp.
And people say in the end you see the beginning. I did and that made the end hurt so much more. I never thought I'd hurt like this over a man
the sky is less blue, the sun's not so bright, i cant sleep because he invades my dreams and when I'm awake my awakening thoughts often drift to him. I feel as if sum one stabbed me and everyday they just twist the jagged edged knife a little more.
I tried escaping my reality with alchol
but it doesn't work because when I'm sober and sooner or later your always sober.lol. the pain came back
I tried to smoke it away but once i was sober the pain came back
everyone keeps telling me to get over him date sum one else to get my mind off of it. but how do you date sum one Else's when u met Mr. right and he was wrong?
how do you hold hope for any other relationship when the man of your dreams became you worst nightmare?
now I reflect on love relationships and people of my past and i ask myself am I meant
to be loved? will I ever really love sum one like I love him?
everyone keeps saying " your to young to give up on love" but love has hit me 2 times to many and fucked me over every time
relationships have fucked me over every single time
when is enough just... enough???????
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Somthing profound i heard today
Death leaves a heart-ache no one can heal but love leaves a memory no one can steal
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Prince or player?
prince...
or player???A player may pipe u down, but a prince wont break your heart...
Which would u prefer? I was listing to this song on jazmine sullivans cd called "another man" now while listing to tha lyrics it inspired me to write a blog. In one verse she says..." u should go and find sumone else who can treat you right,give u tha world. Sumone who understands the man u are cuz baby u shine so bright i would just dim your stars. A girl who treats you like u treat them boy i know theres plenty women who would love to have a man like you but im in love with sumone else"
" i cant explain why its him and not you and at the end of the night i just dnt want to, cuz he aint no... and we always seem to fight he got the perfect body and he dnt even treat me right. Ohh but when im with him, hey when im with him aint nobody else like it. I luv him, i luv him , im so sorry"
This is a funny subject im curious ladies why do you leave the good guy for the badass? Why isint the sweeheart enuff?
Would you rather have the man who is evertyhing u want but lacking in the bedroom or the man who is a complete asshole and is inconsiderate but can fuck you ten ways from sunday?
Its funny that alot of women choose the second guy and then they complain about how he treats them. Why are u with him if your gonna continue to bitch about the way hee treats you?
If you are a grown ass women still walkin around sayin niggas aint shyt you need to ask yourself why r u still fukin wit "aint shyt type of niggas" a man can only do what u allow him to.so lets take sum personal responsibility here ladies... Heres somthin i wanna pass on to u that my dad told me. " A MAN WILL ALWAYS SHOW U WHO HE IS " meaning u can only be a wolf in sheeps clothing for so long. There are always warnings and clues people unintentionally show you. So who will you choose? Player or prince...
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
stacks on mi culo
okay im pretty sure noone can miss this obessesion wit big ass booties. example cubana lust , angel lola luv and bria myles. now i myself am a fan of the "donk" dont get me wrong but there are so many women who have a chronic case of " nasatall"(no-ass-at-all) or "moasdenenuff" (more-ass-than-enuff). lmao them bytches need to share the wealth no bullshyt. the good lord didnt bless us all with huge booties and little waist's but for those of you who just dnt "measure" up in the butt here are a few optoins to get a lil more junk n ur trunk...
1.) This trully amazes me stick on butt pads??? who is buying this shyt
2.)brazilian butt lift
3.) pills???? hmmm ima lil skeptical poppin pills for tha booty? who knows
4.) wax on wax off LOL big booty cream
5.) back shots!!!! (not those kind) hahha needle a day makes tha butt bigs niggas run ur way lol
Friday, August 7, 2009
beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
(what i find beautiful)
(what the world finds beautiful)
I have noticed in the last couple of years magazines and t.v. have considered "beauty" to be a fake warped version of the tru thing. Even the girls on the front of magazines that women old and young want to look like dnt even look like that in person... Beautiful comes in all shapes and sizes
What is the perfect body?
What is the perfect body?
THERES NO SUCH THING
No one body can be the epitome of what all body's should look like. baby variety is the spice of life! And dont you ever forget that. god made us in his image and you should be beautiful in the skin you are in because who made up this thing that beautiul is not being in double digit clothing???? i have to b a size 4 to be sexy??? to be considered to have a nice shape?
NO THANK YOU
i will take my double d's and my nice ass and thighs anyday over being a toothpick!
Why do females strive to be somthing no one is? we tourture ourselves!
sitting uder hot ass hair dryers to get the perfect hair style
putting on make up to have the perfect look
high heels to be sexy and statuesque
what is it???????
when will the main stream media start to accept beauty in all its forms?
tall thin and blond doesnt automatically equal beautiful
beautiful can be thick thighs and full lips
beautiful can be kinky hair and dark skin
beautiful can be short and built
what the world finds beautiful is usually unrealistic newsflash everybody cant wake up in the morning looking like the could b on the cover of vouge.. not even the females on the cover! so next time you think of what is beautiful to you broaden your horizons baby cuz theres more than one path to take to your destination
No one body can be the epitome of what all body's should look like. baby variety is the spice of life! And dont you ever forget that. god made us in his image and you should be beautiful in the skin you are in because who made up this thing that beautiul is not being in double digit clothing???? i have to b a size 4 to be sexy??? to be considered to have a nice shape?
NO THANK YOU
i will take my double d's and my nice ass and thighs anyday over being a toothpick!
Why do females strive to be somthing no one is? we tourture ourselves!
sitting uder hot ass hair dryers to get the perfect hair style
putting on make up to have the perfect look
high heels to be sexy and statuesque
what is it???????
when will the main stream media start to accept beauty in all its forms?
tall thin and blond doesnt automatically equal beautiful
beautiful can be thick thighs and full lips
beautiful can be kinky hair and dark skin
beautiful can be short and built
what the world finds beautiful is usually unrealistic newsflash everybody cant wake up in the morning looking like the could b on the cover of vouge.. not even the females on the cover! so next time you think of what is beautiful to you broaden your horizons baby cuz theres more than one path to take to your destination
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
love lost
Beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppp
I flatlined today
Yeah my heart just broke
I was layin there in my mind thinking sumhow this must be a joke
I never fathomed being without you
I never thought one day I’d wake up and you wouldn’t be around
Its so silent here…. In my world since you’ve been gone
Every song reminds me of you, of us….
Every poem makes me cry
I stare aimlessly into the world when im walking down the street
Life falls on deaf ears for me, its like all I hear is your heartbeat
They say the pain should lessin with time
But as each day goes by I remebr more and forget so much less
I miss your carress
Your kind words and funny jokes
My momma always told me I had to whatch out for people like you
The kind that creep in your heart and never leave your mind
There memorys always withstand the test of time
Some days I wake up I don’t know if I should laugh or cry
How could I forget you?
There are so many things I want to say and so many things we should’ve done
I knew from the moment we meet you where the one
but life has a cruel and unusual type of humor
and I guess we are its amusment at the moment
because as soon as our silver lining came I saw storm clouds coming
and I will always rember your face
the same face that gave me tears
gave me joy
gave me fear
gave me love
the man of a thousand masks
and you wore them all
I keep you close to me
Right in my heart
Our fairytale ends in the beggening
And happily ever after is so far away
But that’s the reality of life it comes and it goes
And one day I’ll wake up
One day my heart will beat again
One day I will have you to look forward to but until then…...
I flatlined today
Yeah my heart just broke
I was layin there in my mind thinking sumhow this must be a joke
I never fathomed being without you
I never thought one day I’d wake up and you wouldn’t be around
Its so silent here…. In my world since you’ve been gone
Every song reminds me of you, of us….
Every poem makes me cry
I stare aimlessly into the world when im walking down the street
Life falls on deaf ears for me, its like all I hear is your heartbeat
They say the pain should lessin with time
But as each day goes by I remebr more and forget so much less
I miss your carress
Your kind words and funny jokes
My momma always told me I had to whatch out for people like you
The kind that creep in your heart and never leave your mind
There memorys always withstand the test of time
Some days I wake up I don’t know if I should laugh or cry
How could I forget you?
There are so many things I want to say and so many things we should’ve done
I knew from the moment we meet you where the one
but life has a cruel and unusual type of humor
and I guess we are its amusment at the moment
because as soon as our silver lining came I saw storm clouds coming
and I will always rember your face
the same face that gave me tears
gave me joy
gave me fear
gave me love
the man of a thousand masks
and you wore them all
I keep you close to me
Right in my heart
Our fairytale ends in the beggening
And happily ever after is so far away
But that’s the reality of life it comes and it goes
And one day I’ll wake up
One day my heart will beat again
One day I will have you to look forward to but until then…...
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