she could be...

theres nothing in these streets for you
and theres nothing u want that i wouldnt do
so when you lay down to go to sleep
i want you to dream of you and me
when your feeling down and out
rember you have something to smile about
of all the souls in all the world
you couldnt have found a more perfect girl
someone to share your dreams
write you love poems and even sings
when you sad she can make your day
she seemingly makes all pain go away
a soft kiss on the lips and loving eyes
a menacing touch with no words rehearsed
you love her and she told you first
your futures clear with her near
so keep her close and be sincere


this poem is dedicated to my heart.... i luv u jamie :)

lingering love

i used to stare into those eyes thinking they were beutiful but they were cold and heartless
i use to kiss those lips not knowing they were slandering and venomous
some days i look at your picture and remember
we had so many good days but then we had our bad
i realized being with you in the end made me constantly sad
and im angry with myself for going thru what i endured
but im more so hurt that you put me thru it
lies and truths ur mind is a rubix
i couodnt figure you out and i have yet to do so
just wen i believe ive got it u change it up and switch shyt around
just when i start to hate you
you tell me u always loved me
just when i start to forget about us
you tell me u always think of me
remebering my kisses
rembering our love making
thoughts of my smile leaving your heart constantly aching
your body yearns to touch me and your heart skips a beat
but after youve said all these things i see you standing at her feet
she fuked up our happy world and the sad part is you let her
you didnt trust me enuff to give me benefit of doubt
when all along it was you who was stepping out
and now look at us
what are we now...
you told me we were forever and i believed you
you told me you loved me and i felt i needed you
some small part of me hoped that you loved me still after all that we've been thru
and even when you stared deep in my eyes and told me you did
i honestly dont know if i can believe you

college shyt

college is not for everyone let me repeat that COLLEGE IS NOT FOR EVERYONE. it takes a hell of a student to be motivated and dedicated to continue there schooling to a bachelors and even more so a masters. its time consuming and fustrating especially when dealing with finacial aid . i have been to 3 different universities i spent my freshman year at morgan state, sophmore at university of dc and my junior year at strayer university. now when i say i have dealt with THE WORST finacial aid reps i mean it!!!

there were so many times wen i completly just didnt have any fight left in me and said fuck school i even skipped a class or 2 or 3 lol. but at the end i kept telling myself im making a better future for me so if i suffer now i reep the benefits later. now here i am senior year i can barely believe i made it.

then lets talk about my journey here! college is full of distractions! 1.) sexy men and women everywhere from different states and countries around the world

2.) parties !!!! im talkin about every kinda party u can imagine foam parties, frat parties, parties at clubs, parties at lounges, homecoming, dorm parties, house parties and my favortie random parties on the lawn of the freshman dorm or football field lol. parties are great you meet lots of people get wasted and probably go back to your off camous apartment to have drunk sex. lol thats always great lollololol no but seriously there are so many easy distraCTIONS IN COLLEGE that u jave to constantly remind yourself what you are there for!

i suggest that if yiu are goiing away to school stay in the dorm at least freshman year im telling you its a hell of an expirence and although i am not the "roomate" type it was a great expirence and im glad to have done it. i have lots of late night dorm memories! college changed me as a person it really helped me figure out who i am and discover the adult me. i was pushed into the real world head first and i loved every minute of it looking bacl i say going to college was the best decision i ever made. i have life long friends, secondary education, i will have a degree and memories that will last a lifetime

forever love

everytime i see you my heart skips a beat
i seemingly freeze nothing on my body moves
except my feet they glide in your direction
even when my mind tells me to retreat
i spent 2 years in a world that revolved around you
a world i never wanted to leave
and now that were over every nigga after you
has had to compete but no one has filled your seat
its empty just like my heart
my world crashed down wen we fell apart
my pride wouldnt let me tell u i really didnt want u to go
my mouth wouldnt even say the very things that i wanted you to know
i spent moths wondering why me curled up in a dark room with my tearz drowning me
and just the thought of her being near u makes me sick
she will never love you half as much as i do
she will never touch you like i did
kiss u like i did
hold u like i did
console u like i did
i was there for you wen u were going through some of the worst shyt
and i always had your back no matter what we went through
and u had mine to and for that very reason i will always love you
it hurts to see you standing right in front of me
knowing we arent the way id want us to be
deep inside i secretly hope that we will eventually get us right
but until that day comes just know a part of me silently weeps
for you every single night
i loved u at your worst and i loved you at your best
im blinded by my htoughts of you
they never succomb to all the rest

love anomoly

It’s a thin line between love and hate
You cross it everyday
Thoughts of you constantly invading my space
How much does it take? For you to realize what you’ve done
No we weren’t perfect baby angels don’t reside on earth
But you destroyed us
You abandoned us
You left us
I tried to fix us
I tried to make it work
I tried to love u but nothing worked
I was once told “Some things aren’t meant to be”
But I always assumed that had nothing to do with you and me
I thought u were the one I had been searching for my entire life
But you were actually the type of man I will spend a lifetime running away from
That heart wrenching soul churning typa love that no woman or man ever wants to turn away from
Its bad for you but it feels so right
Wen things are going good were great when theyre bad we were worse
An unavoidable collision in front of us and we were headed that way with no obstructions In our path
I always basked in our aftermath an explosion of emotions that we’d always have
But love nun the less was visible yet it was never enuff
Love didn’t keep u home
Love didn’t make u tell her no
Love didn’t make u not break my heart
Love didn’t make u stop the tears from my eyes
And love didn’t bring you back to me
Our love was astonishing from good to worse
From better to best I always thought u and I were miles above the rest
But look what we started that we will never finish
Dreams and hopes filled with wishes
U say u love me but should I believe it?
I look into your eyes and I fade to black
I try to grasp ur words but my heart beats so loud I feel as though im def
In the end I sit and think whats left of our once great love
An anomaly of emotions
Memories to cherish
Fights to hate
Dates to rember
And a love that slowly dissenigrates

love this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUQY1UuXDqU

WHHHHHHHHHHHHYyyyyyyyy

i luv me sum nicki she badddd but what the shit where these people doing?????????