love this song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUQY1UuXDqU

WHHHHHHHHHHHHYyyyyyyyy

i luv me sum nicki she badddd but what the shit where these people doing?????????

reconcilliation

im finished his image no longer pressin my existence
i did it live, luv and let go
i find comfort in knowing karma always does its job
i was a imperfectly perfect chapter but your book was flawed
when you flip through ur pages i hope you remember me
remember the tears remember the look on my face
remember the pain you caused that will never be erased
i hope it makes you feel some type of guilt
to reminisce on the once great luv u kilt
and one day when a girl breaks your heart
i hope you think of me when you feel like your worlds falling apart
I once knew this pain at your hands
feeling like i couldnt eat or sleep and would never love again
I thought you had broken me but i refuse to give you that power
because there's no time for judgment in loves final hour
just pure emotion for another human on this earth
one day i'll be whole again and i'll take my heart back
i'll smile and be fruitful
and you will feel pain back to back
the things you said will run through your mind
your mind will be clouded because time is unkind
and when you finally grow up and let go of your hurtful ways
you should just hope that someone is there to love you inspite of your less promising days
I feel like a wieght is lifted and your spell has been broken
Im getting back to me and the things i once loved
i left my thoughts of you to float in all the misguided clouds up above


this is dedicated to my ex james... i loved you , i hated you and one day i will forget you a man i was once enamored with that has hurt me more than any other man ive ever meet i will always associate your name with some type of mild regret i hope one day you see what you put me through and one day some women that you love will do this to you

time to vent...

ugggghhh okay first of all you have no right to be angry in any way shape or form cuz u cheated on me and lied to me for 2 fucking years. now a lesser woman wouldve came down to sersum quarters n stole yo ass but im workin on controlling my anger sir.... first and foremost i have the right to feel however the fuck i want about this whole situation and any opinoin i have about u i can voice via facebook or in your face.... lets get to it you are petty and childish as shyt u fucked up so i brooke up with you only to find out that u wasnt shyt all along and that i waisted 2 years of my life loving a man who couldnt keep his dick to himself and wouldnt know the truth if it sat on his face. when i tried to be nice and talk to you like i have some sense ur raunchy ass wanted to be ignorant it seems like the only way i can communicate wit u is when im cussing ur black ass out. you told me whatever happend while we were together is irrelevant because i broke up with you okay tru shyt so boo if im so fucking irrelevant than why do u feel the need to call me a bitch and say you gonna do sumthin 2 my car and all that big wild shyt????????????????????????/ hmmmmmmmmmm i know that if i feel sum1 is irrelevant ignore there ass and pretend they dont exist.... i tried to be nice and chill and tell u ima be grown and im not off no beef shyt cuz really after the age of 21 u shuldnt still be fighting with ex's over he said she said thats sum high school shyt and frankly babe its beneath me... REALLY but apparently you are childish you are 23 and you are acting like you are 16 yes you james antwane gross. it would be nice if you acted your age and not your shoe size. i mean why are u even mad???? u fucked up not that u probably even care because if u lied about a child then theres no telling what else you lied to me about shyt everything u ever told me u probably never meant. you know writing is the best way for me to get shyt out so yeah this was neccesary. what kinda grown ass man threatens to do somthing to a females care because they aint together.... im a fucking female and i dnt even go around doin shyt like that u dnt have a fucking car for me to do shyt to and if u did i wuldnt because im OVER IT. YOU and this whole situation im a good woman and i dnt need any1 to tell me that i know that but u were to busy trying to impregnate every female in the dmv to notice that so u win sum u lose sum but u aint knock me up boo so yeah i get to move on and not be attached to u for 18 years. GET OVER IT yes i came for u viz facebook 2 ur baby mother and i dnt care if u knw if i didnt want u to know i wuldnt have done it publicly DUHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you have really succeded my expectations i knew you had a raunchy attitude but LMFAO u really take the cake... the audacity of you to feel as if you need some type f get back action.. hahaha i am trying not to let u get me out of my character cuz i really dont wanna have to act a fucking fool in public thats not ladylike. but we both know you have a way of pushing my buttons just enuff to the point where i wanna reach out and touch ur ass.. yeah i said it just like that day i was talking to renita and u was ear hustling.. you could make a nun curse u aint shyt in my eyes a couple of weeks ago i was boo this and boo that now im that bitch this and that bitch that...lololol by the way thats so disrespectful who the fuck taught u this shyt... oh yeah u did mmmmmmmm enuff said well sir im done venting and i just want you to know that niggas like you are the reason why females go gay!!!!!! and the reason why so many grown ass women feel the need to say niggas aint shyt but i know better all niggas arent the same and in my eyes u just aint shyt i cant believe i ever loved you. now i just want to hate you for all the bullshyt u have done and the drama that u are keeping alive. I am doing an immaculent job at keeping my self composed and controlling my temper but bitch dnt tempt me.... seriously let me be irrelevant to you and get the fuck on wit ur life im pretty sure you got some bait to tell lies to so go live ur life and ima live mine..... MIZZEZ MOCHA

love? lost

u were suppose 2 be the one but u hurt me
and after all that weve been thru u deserted me
i loved u to much at times
i never thought things would end like this
i spend everyday rembering what happend, things u said things u did
i never imagined life without u would hurt this bad
and i dnt wana wake up everyday feeling this sad
everyone has an opinion on how we should be
but the fuked up thing is u wont even listen 2 me
wont take my calls wont look me in the eyes
i always thought u were different than all the other guys
lately im feeling like ur just like the others do me wrong then leave
but just like the rest someday you'll be back
and if i no longer feel the way i do now you'll spend a lifetime of regret after that
i never thought u were the type of man to lie to my face
tell me you love me yet i was so easily replaced
in the end people always seem to rember the beginning
at first it was so perfect, we were so perfect and now im finding out it was all a lie
it was wrong form the start you fucked around with my heart
and now you tell me " you have no words"
well why the hell not?
you should have alot of things to say how bout im sorry for starters???
sorry for lying
sorry for hurting you
sorry for stringing you along when i was doing wrong
sorry for wasting 2 years of your life
sorry for telling you i love you and painting a picture of our future when i knew we never had one
sorry for ever speaking to you in the first place
everyday i think of you and i wish we never meet
you have givin me so many things to regret
I feel so stupid for falling so deeply in love
now i have so many things wondering thru my mind that i barely sleep at night
did you ever really love me?
did you ever give a fuck?
was i one in ten?
was anything you said true?
did u ever love me as much as i loved you?
i guess my questions will never be answered
and i cant understand
how could i not see the character of this man
and despite all the things that i now know some small part of me wished it wasnt true
some small part of me kept screaming "NO NOT YOU..."
i never saw this coming and it hit me hard as hell
nothing like a bitch slap into reality to make you see things clear
i was blind for love for to damn long
you taught me a good lesson babe
and i'll rember you when ur gone


this poem is dedicated to james gross a.k.a. noonie my ex thank you for showing me that even the things that are right in front of us can be tainted and love acts as rose colored glasses a person can only hide who they are for so long sooner or later you true colors will show and yours did and now im gonna take these past 2 years as a good lesson learned...
1.)never give more than you get
2.)never put all of you into a relationship
3.)your instincts are your best asset
4.)never be a fool for love cuz it may end up fooling you
5.) sometimes the things we want the most arent good for us
6.) if its broken there is only so many times you can try to fix it until you realize its broken beyond repair thanks james for helping me realize that i dont ever wanna fall in love again....

5 star chick****

okay recently i have come across so many women calling themselves 5 star CHICKS...... ladies we are not all 5 stars as nicki said lil mama u a 3 star. some of these females i see lately are still searchin for there other 2 stars. Why is it that women go to the club drssed like slores but expect men not to treat you as one. Ladies men are very visual creatures they act upon what they see if you are wearing a little dress and bendin ova lettin everyone see ur ass they are gonna treat u like a hoe cause thats how your actin. A man will only do what you allow him to so STOP COMPLAINING and do something about it. If your relationship isint working leave! And please ladies stop trying to change men! dammmmmmmmmnnnnn he is who tha hell he is stop trynna turn him into the perfect guy there is NO perfect guy. And news flash if sumone doesnt want to change they wont not for you or anyone else they will only change when they see fit. Females can be real wreckless I've seen some women do some cold hearted things and it always seems that them acting that way stems from some past relationship. bringing me to my next point LET THAT SHYT GO!!!! its your past for a reason damn stop dwelling on a nigga that hurt you 5 years ago let go and let live. on another note Im seein way to many young girls grownin up way to fast. SLOW IT DOWN life is already short enough to begin with.

now for all the grown women who dont act there age this is for you... if you fit in to any one of these choices its time to grow up!

1.) live with your parents and still ask them for money

2.) if your jobless but find a way to go shopping 3 or 4 times a month

3.) if you only look a guys way because is car is "pretty"

4.) if the only reason he got your number is because he has dreads

5.) if your having the walk of shame and the guy you just slept with doesnt even know your last name

6.)if your 21 and over and still fightin in the club

7.)if you drink damn near everyday just to get shyt done

8.) if you have no idea who ur babbys daddy is

9.) if your a carrer baby momma a.k.a. a trapper

10.) if you are over 21 and hang with 16 year olds ur friends should not fucking be in high school

11.) if you still blamin everybody else for why your life isint going the way u thimnk it should be

12.) if you meet men and have sex with them within a 24-48 hour period but u cant figure out why no man wants to date you

13.) if your a self proclaimed hoe you call it " doin you" and you lecture your younger sister on not doing the very same things she whatches you do

14.) if your still walking around sayin niggas aint shyt... maybe you just date aint shyt typa niggas because you cant handle a real man

15.) if your not exclusive with the "cookies"

16.)living out of your means...example buying 60 dollar designer boots when you only make 1200 a month

17.) living with a family member and expecting a man to be your sugar daddy

18.) playin dudes for money and gifts

19.)smashin the homies

20.) throwing a fit when you dont get your way

21.) dressin like a slore but getting mad when your treated like one

BABYYY do not pass go do not collect 200 dollars YOU ARE NOT A 5 STAR. In order to be a grown woman you have to handle your b.i.! which means you take care of yourself. You dont need a man but you understand the importance of a strong man in your life and you know how to treat them. A grown woman doesnt play games she knows what she wants and she goes after it. little girls play games women dont. A woman is intelligent and can hold an educated conversation. A grown woman is a role model for younger girls showing them what they should be!

if you are....

1.) in school with a 2.9 or higher

2.) have your own place, working and going to school

3.) being an immaculent example for your daughter

4.) being super mom

5.)on your hustle doing whatever it takes to make your dreams become a reality

6.) a virtuos woman and a shinig example of how a lady walks, talks, and acts

then you are a 5 star

things a five star knows....

1.) how to cater to her man

2.)how to be a lady in public

3.) bein classy

4.)furthuring your education may not be for everyone but it takes a strong determined person to do so and finish!

5.)respect people around you... becareful how you speak to people you may be entertaing an angel unaware

6.) make your money but dont let the money make you

7.) respect yourself

THere are to many little girls running around claiming they are grown when they are totally dependent on someone else for there survival. daddy buying you a care doesnt mean its yours sweetie buy your own. pay your bills on time, have good credit! know how to treat a man with respect now thats a real women

man vs. boy

Im a firm believer that women are just as capable of doing all the things men do. especially when it comes to breaking hearts. but today we arent gonna talk about the ladies guys this post is strictly about you...

I am noticing a trend lately of boys who want to be men. Its like an epedemic!!!! here are some clues of how to spot a want to b man...

1.) if you drive a lexus, charger, challenger or any type of sports vehicle and are still living with your parents

2.) if you dont have a job and never furthered your education yet you wonder why the job field is limited to hair nets and name tags

3.) you still expect christmas and bday gifts from your mom

4.) if yiu thik its unfair to work on holidays

5.) if you still loooking for a "ride or die"

6.)if you call all female bitches

7.) if you get mad when the "shawty" number u was trynna get walks away so u call her a hoe

8.) if you wait outsidfe the club for it to be over so u can " pull badd bitches"

9.) if you tink its okay to not want a relationship but everyone is elligable for friends with benefits

10.) If you think you can look at a gurl and tell if shes burning or not

11.) if your over the age of 21 and all of your friends are at keast 2 or 3 years younger than you

12.) if your 28 or older and still trying to club hop everyweekend

13.)if you play more than 15 hours of madden every week

14.) if you have authentic louis vittn shoes but dont have your own apartment

15.) if you go to your bestfriends wedding and rant in your speech about how single life is the shyt!

now I could go on and on but lets cut to the point. Sum of you guys not all but sum need to GROW THE FUCK UP. there is no excuse for why you are 21 doing the same dumb things you did at 16. are you serious. Its time to be grown ass men seriously learn to take responsibility for your own actions stop blaming everybody else for your personal problems. AND sex ... ughhhhh where do i start!!!!! GOD y are u fucking females raw WHYYYYYYYYYYYY omg young there are so many things being passed around its crazy like one night of pleasure can cause you a lifetime of pain baby u better wrap it up before u go deep sea divin cuz the good good lookin more kike lava now a days. u play with fire huney you get burned. thas for sure

Fellas stop lyin to these women!!!!! damn fellas you keep feedin ladies this bullshyt was really gucci? here goes yall best bull shyt lines...

1.) im just not ready for a relationship right now ive been hurt and i wanna take it slow

2.) I know we just b-u-d-d-y's but your the only one im fuckin right now

3.) dont i always keep it 100 with you?

4.) lets just be friends for right now and we will see where that goes

5.) i dont think we should label our feelings for one another lets just let it happen

Now let me tell u guys something all the females that yall consider wreckless are that way for a reason! some guy fed them this vetry same bullshyt they fell in love then realized way to late that they were nothing but a good fuck. then they become cold heartless bitches who cheat on every guy there with and walk all over men leaving some poor guy wondering what they did wrong. when guys run into this women they never wonder what guy made her this way or how she ended up llike this they just assume she's cold blodded. Guys let me tell you something the maybe a newsflash to you all but let me bold this FEMALES WILL RESPECT YOUR HONESTY SO JUST KEEP IT 100 dont lie and sell dreams cuz at the end of the day who are you really hurting? if you spend your whole life playin around and doggin females you will end up alone old and unhappy. Its okay to fall in love guys its okay to admit your lookin for mrs. right cuz what you put out into the universe you shall bring unto yourself! when are you gonna bookshelf that players card and really try to make a man out of the boy?