I refuse to apologize

I refuse to apologize for being me. Everybody wants that honest friend who will tell them how it is with out sugar coating it with bullshyt. IM THAT BITCH.... dont repremend me for keepin it real wit u. thas what u asked for. and honey dont ask for the truth if u wanna hear lies! Ima pretty honest person I will lie to keep my ass off the line just like anyone else. but truth is im a horrible liar! i mean terrible ... this is both a gift and a curse but mostly a gift. I know that everyone cant b ur friend and everyone wont like you. but let me sayh this to everyone IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME OR ANYTHING I SAY be a man or woman about yours and ask me about it i will GLADLY tell u whats good... Dont go behind my back n talk shyt thas not cool. I dont like people who aint doin shyt with there lives so in 09 those people have been DELETED!!!! LLS.... there are so many men out here who act like cold skirts..... MAN THE FUCK UP..DAMN and to all u wreckless ass bitches ATTEMPT TO B GROWN ABOUT YOURS! im tired of faCEBOOK AND MYSPACE GANGSTERS who start shyt on a damn computer but cant say shyt to you. And tired of niggas who are internet whores..its a new year people. Ive made so many changes this year already if u havent heard from me either via phone, text, email or fb then ur one of those changes... and you know who you are. for all of yall i fucks wit. you know me! u know how i am so if you dont want to hear the truth pleaaasssseee dont ask. ANd because u know me so well u know that i will come to you if ever your name is in ANYTHING thas bad. I wouldnt leave u out in the cold bout shyt that got to do with you thas how i am i'd respect u if you do the same. But dnt get salty cuz i ask u a question thats for kids. I respect people who are loyal and dont run baheind ur back and tell others shyt about you when ur not around. If you do that and its about me dont get mad when i pull ur cards on it real shyt. I thank everybody for readin this note either u a good friend n someone i fuck wit or you need to read this and really contemplate the shyt...

amen!!!! u can say that shyt again...

mind ur fucking business!!!!

wait one more time

mind ur fucking business!!!!!!!

Lord theres nothing worse than a nosey muthafuka or a hater ... geesh does it make ur day to wake up in the a.m. and think of ways to fuck wit me? do you feel important when my name is coming out of your mouth? its strange how you dedicate notes to me via facebook and myspace just to talk shyt and yet i dnt gratify you with a particular response. well ima a lil feed up so mind it bitch! damn the phrase " hated by many envied by most" SO TRUE.. honey ima put it to you like this haters are annoying and they get old but if you dont have any then u aint doin sumthin right... PREACH

and then you have the people who offer there opinion when no one asked for the shyt. *newsflash* if i didn't ask u what u think or what u would do then just shut tha fuk up!!!! ladies i know we all have those friends who just itch to give there damn opinion in certain situations when its not welcome. Fellas I know u got that one male friend who thinks he knows EVERYTHING and just cant help but to fill u in on all the shyt he's got cramed in his little head.

there are 3 types of friends...

1.) the one that tells u what u need to hear even when u dont wanna hear it

2.) the one who tells u what u should do but sugar coats it in an attempt not to hurt your feelings

3.) the wild card that will say whatever the hell comes to mind you know the one that always says" guuuuuuuuurrrrlll i gotta knife lets roll by his house bet his car be on flats tomorrow" or in some cases the extreme one who says " bitch i got the gasoline u get a match he wont come tha fuck around no more" LOLOLOLOLOL (me)

and on rare occasion #1 or 2 is a judgmental muthafuka... they just gotta tell you how you doing shyt wrong and what you need to do but there damn situation fucked up just as much as yours is.

tell me this HOW THE FUCK CAN U FIX MY RELATIONSHIP IF YOURS IS FUCKED UP?

geesh let me school these bitches do me a favor think about what your gonna say before you open your mouth and if you have the urge to give your opinion when no one asked for it just DON'T cuz 9 times out of 10 YOU are the only person who gives a damn about what u think...

*this has been a public service announcement for hatin ass muthafuckas and nosey as bitches*

thank you we will now tune back to your regularly scheduled program.LLS

Blast from the past... La La land

decision's decision's..... hmmmmmm Well recently I was riding the metro and wen my nice little ocean decided to get service again i realized i had a voicemail. so i listened to it... WOW it was Mr. invisible!!!! geesh an ex from a year ago who after we broke up just seems to like to pop in and out of my life. Our relationship didn't work cause trouble always seemed to find him! we were friends before we dated so we continued to be friends after. the transition was okay. but he disappeared 6 mths ago. then miraculously i get a voicemail from him. and everything was coolin till he took a trip down memory lane and started to revisit the past... I just knew this convo was coming! ughHHHH.... its crazy when you love someone u fall out of love with them but u always have sum luv for them unless the completely do u REAL DIRTY.... I care but we cool i never thought of revisiting us. He was the type of person who seemed so perfect on the outside and wen u learn about them they seem broken but they refuse to except ur sympathy and despite all the bullshyt life puts them through they keep it movin. i respect that... Not everyone can push aside the whoaaa is me mentality. Everybody says you have one true love in ur life and there is only 1 "the one". I feel like thas not true ive been in love 3 times and at the time i thought everyone was THE ONE... lol but now i can say that one of them was definitely a BIG regret. I did whatever for this dude and in the end he repaid me by hitting me in the fucking face. Just goes to show you people arent everything u think they are... LA LA Land is all the mushy shyt that has to do wit luv. but this blast from the past got me thinking about all the shyt i been thru in relationships.... WHERE THE FUCK IS PRINCE CHARMING???

first stop!!!!! hell wit gasoline draws on...

Okay when you were younger I know ur parents taught you about fibing! mine told me its a one way ticket to hell with gasoline draws on.LOL
Lemme tell you guys the situation nd you let me know what you think okay here we go!!!

Theres this guy I've known For quite sometime. ima call him "mason dixie line" We are just friends.... I have always told him the truth because that is how i want my relationships with others to be open and honest. He made it wierd by telling me he liked me and wanted to be with me. Now he knew that at the time he was saying all this I had a boyfriend whom ima call mr.411. I kindly declined the offer. we remained friends. My relationship was falling apart I got to the point where I was ready to give it up. I started to ponder what would life be like if I had takin mason dixie line up on his offer...truth be told befor i meet mr.411 I had a HUGE crush on south of the mason dixie line but I didnt have the balls to tell him because I thought he didnt like me that way. turns out I was wrong. In life we will miss so many opportunitys and be left with the What if's and Maybe's.... anywayz I ended up single at one point shortly after his little confession. I decided to give him a try but he was a little standoffish so i didnt push the subject. He brought up the convo once again and told me that he doesnt talk to anyone n isint seeing any female he just has friends. Ive been nothing but honest so i suspected he had no reason to lie. we start talkin.... OMG for those of you who dont know d.c. is small and WHAT U DO IN THE DARK ALWAYS COMES TO LIGHT !!! tru shyt is darkcame to light....hes a WHOLE HOE! i start seeing him with random ass bitches around town. and I wasnt angry that he was involved with sum one because i didnt expect him to wait around for me to be free. the thing that pissed me off is that he lied about it. WHY do you feel the need to lie to me? I never pass judgment when people confide in me so why lie? the day i saw him in action he was sooooo busy staring in sum gurls face he never noticed i was standing there! so i didnt say a word just observed from a far... yeah hes been deleted form my phone its 2009 im not playin this year liars get the boot i dnt care if u lie about sumthin small... it doesnt matter the fact is u lied... id b a raunchy bitch if i posted his picture up to let females know he a hoe but im not gonna do that... im playin nice this year fuck em

Baby he's just a friend... Who's this dude???★lolz

Well its been a while.... Finals been goin on but im back like cook'd crack bitches whas good???? LOLZAIGHT... Heres the new topic! *paranoid niggas*Fellas please tell me wtf do u get outta goin thru ur girls phone and textin niggas n it???? If ur over 18 and out of high school then what the hell is the deal? Being parinoid will not get u anywhere. No female wants a man who is insecure... And YES being paranoid makes u insecure! If you cant trust that she not fuckin wit otha niggas then u dnt need to b wit her. And ladies if u cant leave ur phone n the room without coming back n seeing a text from sumone cussin u out sayin fuk u das was up then u dnt need to be wit his ass. We are to fuckin grown to be going thru this

★*fellas*★

*If u cuss ur girl out everytime she go to the club find u a bitch that stays at home!
* if u get mad when texts or im's come in her cell find a bitch thats a loser witout friends who can dedicate every wakin moment to u

♥*ladies*♥

*if u have to keeep changin ur security code cuz his top secret ass keep figurin out n readin ur shyt find a dumb fuck who cnt work phones
*If you have to argue everytime a dude look @ u to long find a nigga better lookin than u.lolz

Heres the clue darling's.... NO MORE PARANOID AND INSECURE MUTHAFUKAS...its bout to be 2009 step ur shyt up and grow up lets b adults babies ... Until next time MWAHHHHH

pain

hello darlings!!!! today's topic is pain... I know we have all been hurt in some way by someone in our lifetime. Today i was thinking why is it that the ones u love the most seem to dissapoint you??? family is suppose to be the peopl who care for you more than anyone else yet lately i've been running in to people who's family are the ones fuking them over wether they realize it or not... man what do you do when they people who should have your back no matter what are the one's stabbing you in it???

and who ever said love dont love nobody was a smart muthafuka man. why is it that you can love a man till u literally have nothing left in u and yet still they wont be satisfied. I've loved a man before who i did anything for. He was my first in so many things i treated him like the most important person in my life. whatever he waas going through i was there no matter how bad the situation yet i am the one he didnt give a fuck a about. He was so busy being all about his friends he forgot about the bitch he left at home... I vowed never again. see when u think u love someone you tolerate things that you usually wouldnt, u say and do things u may not like just to get the person u love to love you as much as u luv them. I learned sometimes its better to just give up and let go... shyt fuk kiesha cole say " if he dont wanna love you he aint gonna..." ain tthat the truth theres nothing you can say or do to change him so don twaste your time..

pain comes in many ways besides the physical how do we cop with th ebullshyt life throws and still keep an optomistic outlook on things????

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