Sunday, February 8, 2009

if it aint broke dnt fix it and if it is super glue that shyt


never believe what people tell you..... rumors are nothing more than lies and people who have nothing better to do with them selves love to lie... its alot of things i'd like to say to people i've met in my life.. people i dnt fuk wit anymore.

id ask my ex why he took advantage of me and used me and why he was such an Internet whore when all i wanted to do was love him he treated me like shyt n hit my ass and why he said he was sorry but never really meant it

id ask an ex friend why it was so necessary fr her to make something small a big deal and blow the shyt outta proportion.

i'd ask my sis why she changed and became sumone i dnt know anymore.

id ask my friend why he always thinks im playin wit him when im dead ass.

id ask the one i lost why he couldn't just wait a little while longer, he wanted things and i wanted to make sure he was there for the right reasons.

id ask Mr southern hospitality why he even bothered to kick it wit me from day one.

id ask a friend why he never gave me a chance.

i'd ask a female who i luv so much why shes so fuckin judgemental and sad.

i'd ask my brother if i never told him my secret would he have been angry to here it from sumone else.

i'd ask my mother why she always made me feel like i was never good enough

sometimes i sit and think about my past the people i've known the things i've said and i ask myself do i regret things??
i can honestly say there's only one person in my life i wish i could forget and its because what he did to me made me look at all men as if they are out to do me wrong and because of him i may have treated other guys bad or just never gave them the time of day. I think because of a certain female and the betrayal she gave me i dnt trust very much i cant understand why she'd sink so low it hurts to watch someone you once loved do you dirty and talk shyt about you like they never knew you. and through all of that i kept her secrets...whatever she told me i still with me but i guess bitches just dnt hold water. I regret not leaving I was so afraid to move because i didnt want to leave the people i love the most behind i didnt want them to grow old and live life without me. but life shouldn't be about regrets and past situations what matters the most is that you take every situation and you learn from them turn something made into a lesson learned. there's no point in crying over things you cant change... you cnt change people, you cnt change the past, and you cant change mistakes but you can live,love proceed and progress

1 comment:

Cookie071988 said...

You have a whole lot of questions that needs to be answered. some of which i know about due to previous convos we have had in the privacy of by basement. lol. but seriously son this is 2009 and we are going down a road of Change. Everything is chaging and we as young ladies are growing everyday. The questions you are asking yourself you need to not harp over for much longer. Either they will get answered or not but as long asyou know who is here for you and has your best intrest at heart thats all that should matter. dont stress over ignorance or BS... Love ya Stinky