tests of faith

people say god has a way of showing you who's god
but i been searchin all my life n im still lookin 4 it
trial after tribulation and im still goin thru it
damn i want shyt 2 be better
but y i feel like im goin thru hell to do it
laugh now cry later thas sum tru shyt
looks like life catches up wit u faster than u ever knew
wen every chance u ever had u blew
im just lookin 4 tha right tunnel so i can follow thru
hidden tears behind smiles i just breeze through life
you'll never know my struggles
you'll never see my pain
i hate it when it storms but i damn sure love the rain
it brings me relief so i can cry in peace
pacin down a empty sidewalk with tear stained cheeks
i found my way to the church and as i was standin at the stairs
the heavens opened upi swear i could hear an angels prayers
it was then that i knew exactly where i should be
i put all my faith in god because he put all his love in me

WHYYYYY?????

Omfg... Drop socks????? Okay so im n the club partyin like shyt while my lil cuz performin then i turn to my left and see this shyt.... I wish i wouldve got the whole outfit. This crackhead lookin bitch had on liquid leggings a white t a mans vest that was hideous! And drop socks wit reebooks.... BITCH ima need you to steep into 2009 and leave 1993 there! What the hell now whomever let her walk out the house like this is dead ass wrong

R.i.p.

The big brown eyes u luved to look in to are tired of looking at u
The heart u loved is tired of breaking

Whats worth losing me?
Money, friends material things?

Ive asked u for nothing and given you everything

In return what have i recieved?
Tear stained pillows
Lonely nights
headace's derived from our constant fights

I thought i"d love u forever
I thought u were my last
but now i realize You will inevitably become just another man in my past
A face with a name and no feelings attached

i never loved a man more than i loved u
Today i realized we wouldnt work and my heart ripped in 2

I knw part of me will die with the memory of you
A life will never happen
Smiles we wont share
Laughter we wont hear
Moments we wont rember
and memories we wont have

A plane wont take flight to a destination where a honeymoon would have been filled with lustful nights

An aisle i'll never walk with u 2 words i wont say... "I do"
Our unborn child will never have a chance to see daddy's smile every morning and feel mommys hands
so many plans we made for our future that will never come to pass

R.i.p. To all the things we once were and the many things that will never be
I hope u find what your looking for and i leave our luv with your memory of me

a womens heart

im not meant to be broken
not meant to be hurt
not meant to be your sidewalk on days you feel like being a jerk
and love isint a joke i dont take it lightly
in spite of your lack of enthusiasum
i tried to make it work but as we both know you hit me where it hurts

you promised you'd never make me cry
promised you'd never scheme or lie
promised to be there
promised to love
promised to chersish me and put me above all things
you said you were different but in reality u were just like the rest
this was the final exam and baby you horribly failed the test

i was everything you could want and everything you'd ever need
but you just couldnt give me a few simple things
your love
trust and loyalty
and i wont scream and shout i wont even strike you
even though some days i feel like throwing liquid on you and staring while i ignite you

youve made me want to be like the very men i despise
telling niggas i luv them and filling there head with lies
telling them i care knowing i really dont
and telling them there always be my one and only when i know they wont

i could be vindictive and i could be a bitch
but theres only one thing i really really wish
i wish i could forget all the heartaches and all the pain
that way i'd never have the thought that all men are the same
i wish i could go back to the day we meet and stop myself from doing somthing i'd regret

i wish this didnt hurt so much
some times i cant take what i feel
so i light it up n take a drink till its my face i cant feel