forever love

everytime i see you my heart skips a beat
i seemingly freeze nothing on my body moves
except my feet they glide in your direction
even when my mind tells me to retreat
i spent 2 years in a world that revolved around you
a world i never wanted to leave
and now that were over every nigga after you
has had to compete but no one has filled your seat
its empty just like my heart
my world crashed down wen we fell apart
my pride wouldnt let me tell u i really didnt want u to go
my mouth wouldnt even say the very things that i wanted you to know
i spent moths wondering why me curled up in a dark room with my tearz drowning me
and just the thought of her being near u makes me sick
she will never love you half as much as i do
she will never touch you like i did
kiss u like i did
hold u like i did
console u like i did
i was there for you wen u were going through some of the worst shyt
and i always had your back no matter what we went through
and u had mine to and for that very reason i will always love you
it hurts to see you standing right in front of me
knowing we arent the way id want us to be
deep inside i secretly hope that we will eventually get us right
but until that day comes just know a part of me silently weeps
for you every single night
i loved u at your worst and i loved you at your best
im blinded by my htoughts of you
they never succomb to all the rest

love anomoly

It’s a thin line between love and hate
You cross it everyday
Thoughts of you constantly invading my space
How much does it take? For you to realize what you’ve done
No we weren’t perfect baby angels don’t reside on earth
But you destroyed us
You abandoned us
You left us
I tried to fix us
I tried to make it work
I tried to love u but nothing worked
I was once told “Some things aren’t meant to be”
But I always assumed that had nothing to do with you and me
I thought u were the one I had been searching for my entire life
But you were actually the type of man I will spend a lifetime running away from
That heart wrenching soul churning typa love that no woman or man ever wants to turn away from
Its bad for you but it feels so right
Wen things are going good were great when theyre bad we were worse
An unavoidable collision in front of us and we were headed that way with no obstructions In our path
I always basked in our aftermath an explosion of emotions that we’d always have
But love nun the less was visible yet it was never enuff
Love didn’t keep u home
Love didn’t make u tell her no
Love didn’t make u not break my heart
Love didn’t make u stop the tears from my eyes
And love didn’t bring you back to me
Our love was astonishing from good to worse
From better to best I always thought u and I were miles above the rest
But look what we started that we will never finish
Dreams and hopes filled with wishes
U say u love me but should I believe it?
I look into your eyes and I fade to black
I try to grasp ur words but my heart beats so loud I feel as though im def
In the end I sit and think whats left of our once great love
An anomaly of emotions
Memories to cherish
Fights to hate
Dates to rember
And a love that slowly dissenigrates