time to vent...

ugggghhh okay first of all you have no right to be angry in any way shape or form cuz u cheated on me and lied to me for 2 fucking years. now a lesser woman wouldve came down to sersum quarters n stole yo ass but im workin on controlling my anger sir.... first and foremost i have the right to feel however the fuck i want about this whole situation and any opinoin i have about u i can voice via facebook or in your face.... lets get to it you are petty and childish as shyt u fucked up so i brooke up with you only to find out that u wasnt shyt all along and that i waisted 2 years of my life loving a man who couldnt keep his dick to himself and wouldnt know the truth if it sat on his face. when i tried to be nice and talk to you like i have some sense ur raunchy ass wanted to be ignorant it seems like the only way i can communicate wit u is when im cussing ur black ass out. you told me whatever happend while we were together is irrelevant because i broke up with you okay tru shyt so boo if im so fucking irrelevant than why do u feel the need to call me a bitch and say you gonna do sumthin 2 my car and all that big wild shyt????????????????????????/ hmmmmmmmmmm i know that if i feel sum1 is irrelevant ignore there ass and pretend they dont exist.... i tried to be nice and chill and tell u ima be grown and im not off no beef shyt cuz really after the age of 21 u shuldnt still be fighting with ex's over he said she said thats sum high school shyt and frankly babe its beneath me... REALLY but apparently you are childish you are 23 and you are acting like you are 16 yes you james antwane gross. it would be nice if you acted your age and not your shoe size. i mean why are u even mad???? u fucked up not that u probably even care because if u lied about a child then theres no telling what else you lied to me about shyt everything u ever told me u probably never meant. you know writing is the best way for me to get shyt out so yeah this was neccesary. what kinda grown ass man threatens to do somthing to a females care because they aint together.... im a fucking female and i dnt even go around doin shyt like that u dnt have a fucking car for me to do shyt to and if u did i wuldnt because im OVER IT. YOU and this whole situation im a good woman and i dnt need any1 to tell me that i know that but u were to busy trying to impregnate every female in the dmv to notice that so u win sum u lose sum but u aint knock me up boo so yeah i get to move on and not be attached to u for 18 years. GET OVER IT yes i came for u viz facebook 2 ur baby mother and i dnt care if u knw if i didnt want u to know i wuldnt have done it publicly DUHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you have really succeded my expectations i knew you had a raunchy attitude but LMFAO u really take the cake... the audacity of you to feel as if you need some type f get back action.. hahaha i am trying not to let u get me out of my character cuz i really dont wanna have to act a fucking fool in public thats not ladylike. but we both know you have a way of pushing my buttons just enuff to the point where i wanna reach out and touch ur ass.. yeah i said it just like that day i was talking to renita and u was ear hustling.. you could make a nun curse u aint shyt in my eyes a couple of weeks ago i was boo this and boo that now im that bitch this and that bitch that...lololol by the way thats so disrespectful who the fuck taught u this shyt... oh yeah u did mmmmmmmm enuff said well sir im done venting and i just want you to know that niggas like you are the reason why females go gay!!!!!! and the reason why so many grown ass women feel the need to say niggas aint shyt but i know better all niggas arent the same and in my eyes u just aint shyt i cant believe i ever loved you. now i just want to hate you for all the bullshyt u have done and the drama that u are keeping alive. I am doing an immaculent job at keeping my self composed and controlling my temper but bitch dnt tempt me.... seriously let me be irrelevant to you and get the fuck on wit ur life im pretty sure you got some bait to tell lies to so go live ur life and ima live mine..... MIZZEZ MOCHA

love? lost

u were suppose 2 be the one but u hurt me
and after all that weve been thru u deserted me
i loved u to much at times
i never thought things would end like this
i spend everyday rembering what happend, things u said things u did
i never imagined life without u would hurt this bad
and i dnt wana wake up everyday feeling this sad
everyone has an opinion on how we should be
but the fuked up thing is u wont even listen 2 me
wont take my calls wont look me in the eyes
i always thought u were different than all the other guys
lately im feeling like ur just like the others do me wrong then leave
but just like the rest someday you'll be back
and if i no longer feel the way i do now you'll spend a lifetime of regret after that
i never thought u were the type of man to lie to my face
tell me you love me yet i was so easily replaced
in the end people always seem to rember the beginning
at first it was so perfect, we were so perfect and now im finding out it was all a lie
it was wrong form the start you fucked around with my heart
and now you tell me " you have no words"
well why the hell not?
you should have alot of things to say how bout im sorry for starters???
sorry for lying
sorry for hurting you
sorry for stringing you along when i was doing wrong
sorry for wasting 2 years of your life
sorry for telling you i love you and painting a picture of our future when i knew we never had one
sorry for ever speaking to you in the first place
everyday i think of you and i wish we never meet
you have givin me so many things to regret
I feel so stupid for falling so deeply in love
now i have so many things wondering thru my mind that i barely sleep at night
did you ever really love me?
did you ever give a fuck?
was i one in ten?
was anything you said true?
did u ever love me as much as i loved you?
i guess my questions will never be answered
and i cant understand
how could i not see the character of this man
and despite all the things that i now know some small part of me wished it wasnt true
some small part of me kept screaming "NO NOT YOU..."
i never saw this coming and it hit me hard as hell
nothing like a bitch slap into reality to make you see things clear
i was blind for love for to damn long
you taught me a good lesson babe
and i'll rember you when ur gone


this poem is dedicated to james gross a.k.a. noonie my ex thank you for showing me that even the things that are right in front of us can be tainted and love acts as rose colored glasses a person can only hide who they are for so long sooner or later you true colors will show and yours did and now im gonna take these past 2 years as a good lesson learned...
1.)never give more than you get
2.)never put all of you into a relationship
3.)your instincts are your best asset
4.)never be a fool for love cuz it may end up fooling you
5.) sometimes the things we want the most arent good for us
6.) if its broken there is only so many times you can try to fix it until you realize its broken beyond repair thanks james for helping me realize that i dont ever wanna fall in love again....