love? lost

u were suppose 2 be the one but u hurt me
and after all that weve been thru u deserted me
i loved u to much at times
i never thought things would end like this
i spend everyday rembering what happend, things u said things u did
i never imagined life without u would hurt this bad
and i dnt wana wake up everyday feeling this sad
everyone has an opinion on how we should be
but the fuked up thing is u wont even listen 2 me
wont take my calls wont look me in the eyes
i always thought u were different than all the other guys
lately im feeling like ur just like the others do me wrong then leave
but just like the rest someday you'll be back
and if i no longer feel the way i do now you'll spend a lifetime of regret after that
i never thought u were the type of man to lie to my face
tell me you love me yet i was so easily replaced
in the end people always seem to rember the beginning
at first it was so perfect, we were so perfect and now im finding out it was all a lie
it was wrong form the start you fucked around with my heart
and now you tell me " you have no words"
well why the hell not?
you should have alot of things to say how bout im sorry for starters???
sorry for lying
sorry for hurting you
sorry for stringing you along when i was doing wrong
sorry for wasting 2 years of your life
sorry for telling you i love you and painting a picture of our future when i knew we never had one
sorry for ever speaking to you in the first place
everyday i think of you and i wish we never meet
you have givin me so many things to regret
I feel so stupid for falling so deeply in love
now i have so many things wondering thru my mind that i barely sleep at night
did you ever really love me?
did you ever give a fuck?
was i one in ten?
was anything you said true?
did u ever love me as much as i loved you?
i guess my questions will never be answered
and i cant understand
how could i not see the character of this man
and despite all the things that i now know some small part of me wished it wasnt true
some small part of me kept screaming "NO NOT YOU..."
i never saw this coming and it hit me hard as hell
nothing like a bitch slap into reality to make you see things clear
i was blind for love for to damn long
you taught me a good lesson babe
and i'll rember you when ur gone


this poem is dedicated to james gross a.k.a. noonie my ex thank you for showing me that even the things that are right in front of us can be tainted and love acts as rose colored glasses a person can only hide who they are for so long sooner or later you true colors will show and yours did and now im gonna take these past 2 years as a good lesson learned...
1.)never give more than you get
2.)never put all of you into a relationship
3.)your instincts are your best asset
4.)never be a fool for love cuz it may end up fooling you
5.) sometimes the things we want the most arent good for us
6.) if its broken there is only so many times you can try to fix it until you realize its broken beyond repair thanks james for helping me realize that i dont ever wanna fall in love again....