man being in love is hard but you know whats harder???? having a relationship. see people tend to take advantage of you when they know you love them. They do shit just because you love them so much you will let them get away with it. The only thing worse than a relationship is when its over!!!!!! ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
when its over you feel like you've wasted years you will never get back days u will never again have moments you will never forget and memories you will never be able to erase. See once you love a person I mean truly love a person they will always have a place in you heart even if they did you really wrong you may stop loving them but you will never forget about them. You will move on and get on with your life but in the back of your mind they will still occupy sum small place.
I thought I knew what love was but now that I'm older i look back and i realize so many times have i used that word in vain. many times have i said "i love you" and i really didn't. Now i know that I've only really loved 3 men in my life. my first love Although we were young I still often think of him i miss him and in sum ways i luv him but am not in love with him. my second love was a man i thought could do no wrong he treated me like i was the most important thing in his life. he made me feel like i was unbreakable. AND last but not least the third... and most recent god this man
i believe I loved him the most. Like settle down spend the rest of my life with u type of love
He made me feel like i was floating whenever i was with him. and when we were apart my heart grew fonder i missed him he was my waking thought and my reoccurring dream. he was my perfect man.... or so i thought he was beautiful long dreaded hair perfect chocolate skin tall a beautiful smile and a loving touch. He was intelligent thoughtful, caring, considerate a model man and an outstanding father but maybe that was the problem i put him up on a pedestal as if he was above every other man i labeled him my last and only but as time went on things changed...
our perfect relationship became flawed, he became flawed and the more problems arouse the more i held on the harder oi tried to be a perfect girlfriend to be there for him to be his everything. but the more i tried the more he seemed to slip from my grasp.
And people say in the end you see the beginning. I did and that made the end hurt so much more. I never thought I'd hurt like this over a man
the sky is less blue, the sun's not so bright, i cant sleep because he invades my dreams and when I'm awake my awakening thoughts often drift to him. I feel as if sum one stabbed me and everyday they just twist the jagged edged knife a little more.
I tried escaping my reality with alchol
but it doesn't work because when I'm sober and sooner or later your always sober.lol. the pain came back
I tried to smoke it away but once i was sober the pain came back
everyone keeps telling me to get over him date sum one else to get my mind off of it. but how do you date sum one Else's when u met Mr. right and he was wrong?
how do you hold hope for any other relationship when the man of your dreams became you worst nightmare?
now I reflect on love relationships and people of my past and i ask myself am I meant
to be loved? will I ever really love sum one like I love him?
everyone keeps saying " your to young to give up on love" but love has hit me 2 times to many and fucked me over every time
relationships have fucked me over every single time
when is enough just... enough???????
when its over you feel like you've wasted years you will never get back days u will never again have moments you will never forget and memories you will never be able to erase. See once you love a person I mean truly love a person they will always have a place in you heart even if they did you really wrong you may stop loving them but you will never forget about them. You will move on and get on with your life but in the back of your mind they will still occupy sum small place.
I thought I knew what love was but now that I'm older i look back and i realize so many times have i used that word in vain. many times have i said "i love you" and i really didn't. Now i know that I've only really loved 3 men in my life. my first love Although we were young I still often think of him i miss him and in sum ways i luv him but am not in love with him. my second love was a man i thought could do no wrong he treated me like i was the most important thing in his life. he made me feel like i was unbreakable. AND last but not least the third... and most recent god this man
i believe I loved him the most. Like settle down spend the rest of my life with u type of love
He made me feel like i was floating whenever i was with him. and when we were apart my heart grew fonder i missed him he was my waking thought and my reoccurring dream. he was my perfect man.... or so i thought he was beautiful long dreaded hair perfect chocolate skin tall a beautiful smile and a loving touch. He was intelligent thoughtful, caring, considerate a model man and an outstanding father but maybe that was the problem i put him up on a pedestal as if he was above every other man i labeled him my last and only but as time went on things changed...
our perfect relationship became flawed, he became flawed and the more problems arouse the more i held on the harder oi tried to be a perfect girlfriend to be there for him to be his everything. but the more i tried the more he seemed to slip from my grasp.
And people say in the end you see the beginning. I did and that made the end hurt so much more. I never thought I'd hurt like this over a man
the sky is less blue, the sun's not so bright, i cant sleep because he invades my dreams and when I'm awake my awakening thoughts often drift to him. I feel as if sum one stabbed me and everyday they just twist the jagged edged knife a little more.
I tried escaping my reality with alchol
but it doesn't work because when I'm sober and sooner or later your always sober.lol. the pain came back
I tried to smoke it away but once i was sober the pain came back
everyone keeps telling me to get over him date sum one else to get my mind off of it. but how do you date sum one Else's when u met Mr. right and he was wrong?
how do you hold hope for any other relationship when the man of your dreams became you worst nightmare?
now I reflect on love relationships and people of my past and i ask myself am I meant
to be loved? will I ever really love sum one like I love him?
everyone keeps saying " your to young to give up on love" but love has hit me 2 times to many and fucked me over every time
relationships have fucked me over every single time
when is enough just... enough???????
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