lingering love

i used to stare into those eyes thinking they were beutiful but they were cold and heartless
i use to kiss those lips not knowing they were slandering and venomous
some days i look at your picture and remember
we had so many good days but then we had our bad
i realized being with you in the end made me constantly sad
and im angry with myself for going thru what i endured
but im more so hurt that you put me thru it
lies and truths ur mind is a rubix
i couodnt figure you out and i have yet to do so
just wen i believe ive got it u change it up and switch shyt around
just when i start to hate you
you tell me u always loved me
just when i start to forget about us
you tell me u always think of me
remebering my kisses
rembering our love making
thoughts of my smile leaving your heart constantly aching
your body yearns to touch me and your heart skips a beat
but after youve said all these things i see you standing at her feet
she fuked up our happy world and the sad part is you let her
you didnt trust me enuff to give me benefit of doubt
when all along it was you who was stepping out
and now look at us
what are we now...
you told me we were forever and i believed you
you told me you loved me and i felt i needed you
some small part of me hoped that you loved me still after all that we've been thru
and even when you stared deep in my eyes and told me you did
i honestly dont know if i can believe you